Melody in my head

It's been a while since I post worth-to-read posts. Wait, since when am I writing posts that worth? All my writings are worthless because they are diary my feelings. You know some people write when they're sad it's one of the ways to relieve pain. Usually heartache and emotional pain. Like what I'm feeling right now, heartache i mean, flu. Last night I use this weird small machine for people who have asthma to help them breathing. Thanks a lot to that machine I can finally breathe normally now.
I don't have the main idea of this post I'm currently writing but I'll just tell you some of my favorite song ok :)

• The Script - For the First Time
• Pitbull ft. Christina Aguilere - Feel This Moment
• Celine Dion - I Surrender
• Will.I.Am ft. Justin Bieber - That Power
• One Republic - If I Lose Myself
•  The Wanted - I Found Fou
• M.I.A - Bad girls
•  Cheryl Cole - Parachute
• Selena Gomez - Come and Get it
• One Direction - Irresistible 
• Demi Lovato - Heart Attack

fml.

because everything I do is always wrong, everything I do gets me in trouble. What's my point of living then? To torture myself? lol at my life. fml.

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Accident.

I'm in an extremely bad mood so here is an embarrassing story that makes my mood even worst.
So last Monday, I was walking with my friend. It was raining and the floor is very slippery. We were joking and then "AAAAHHHHH KEPALA AKU SAKIT BANGET" cried a girl who fell and her head and hand hit the floor. Yep, that's me :) I think everyone heard me screaming and crying and damn how I wish I can disappear in that moment. My head still hurts until now. Really hurts. And afterschool, everyone at school asked me, "Pristina, did you just cry?" Dammit, I should never cry that hard ugh. Now the whole school knows I cried. It was so fucking embarrassing ugh. From now on I will be very careful walkingin the school. I dom't want things like that to happen again.
alright this is the only paragraph that popped up in my head, cant think of any more sentences so ciao! ;) xx

Sunday

If anyone asked how am I,  the answer would be: I am completely fine a.k.a sick, tired, mad, stressed. I always feel this way since my life has been completely upside-down lately.
2 days ago, there's an assembly at school and it's year 8's turn which is my class! The boys of "Ridiculously Acht" performed a drama and it was TOTALLY WELL PERFORMED! Everyone loves it! Everyone laughed! The boys have some serious cool sense of humor! Best assembly ever!
Btw, I made this edit of Cara Delevingne which I think is quite awesome for a newbie like me:
ps. Please credit me if you use or take it! #noplagiarism

I ain't weak.

I ain't weak. That's what I believe I am. But people call me weak, they bring me down. They said,
"Halah, masa gitu aja capek sih." they said after I did a long run.
"payah lo" they said after I said I can't be too tired or else I'll be sick.
Denger nya aja sakit loh :)
Aku gapernah minta sakit. Gamau ko sakit. Gamau lemah. Gamau juga dibilang manja, dibilang lemah. Mau protes? Ke siapa? Allah created me this way and I am happy with it. Deal with it.
"Every piece of me is imperfect which makes me a perfect human because no human is perfect" - Pristina.
This is probably the most emotional writing I will ever write cos tears are literally falling from my eyes like a waterfall.
To be really honest, I'm tired of crying, screaming, stressed out of what people think of me. The way they judge me, comment on me, hate on me, it just hurts okay. It really does. I feel like bullied indirectly.
How will you feel when there's too much pressure and you're just too stressed out and people call you names with your weakness? How? Can you just ignore them and let it go? Can you? If you can wow massive applause for you. You probably have an indestructible, unbreakable, hard steel-based heart if you can ignore them and let it go. Well, I can't. I'm not saying I have a soft-heart but I do get offended easily I can even call myself so sensitive.
I'm having quite hard times this year. I know I'm not the only one who have lots and lots of problems but I also know that I'm not the only one having hard times going through these problems. I never thought I would be like this. For your damn information to the people who are heartless and call me names, by just the way you call me names and offended me you make me even more sick. Even the doctor said so. So I suggest you to stfu if you can't say anything but bad things.
You really don't know anything about me, yet you judge me. I assume you're way too overrated. I don't like you. You make me wanna puke on your whole damn existence. Now it's too late for you to regret the things you said to me. It can only be forgiven, not forgotten. Think before you speak, think before you act.

Sick, again.

Heyyyaaaaa I'm in the IT lab and I was given a task to make the float CSS thingy. Turned out to be a horrible plain white result. The CSS effect doesn't show up. Ugh. I hate it when I fail. Even tho, my life is full of failure lol.
So here's the thing. I'm sick and I have to go to school cos of the Gym Rehearsal and SRC meeting thingy. I went to the sick bay and sleep for hours. The side effect of the medicine I just ate this morning is heavy sleepy. You know, I don't want to be sick. No one wants to be sick. So please don't say something about my illness to joke about because when I hear someone says I'm weak or stuff like that, it hurts. It really does hurt ok. Think before you speak. You don't know about me. I swear to god I don't wanna be sick. Be thankful if you're not sick, not calling someone a weak girl or smthng. If you ever call me weak then you surely are a heartless person. Heartless. May Allah bless you, tho.

Again? never!

HEYY!! I'm back from the anti-social-networks place called "School" which sounds more like "Jail full of judgemental people" to me. No actually I'm still at school...
This is my thirs week in the boarding. I don't think I'm going boarding again next month. I mean, come on man who on earth would want to stay in a hell like this? So creepy and yeuurgghh!
No no never ever again. I'm never ever going to boarding again. Like hell ew I would die if I go boarding again for one more time. I hate the school. Like litterally everyone in the school. That includes friends and teachers. But guess what? This is my LAST WEEK in the boarding! yeay!
Btw, yesterday Rizna's and my plan worked well! We gave zee a surprise for her 14th birthday! :)

So happy birthday zahra! :)

Talentless? I don't think so!

*adam lambert - whattaya want from me*
ok so I just went home from Darussalam. Oh yes sir I did lose the competition. I'm not very talented at art so I am not surprised. Wanna know what I'm good at?

1. making people upset
2. creating troubles
3. set everything on fire
4. mess things up
5. fangirling

 You see I'm not one of those girls who are so artistic they can even draw their faces. I can't even draw a stickman. My drawing looks like a cat drew it. Dafuq maybe it's not my thing.
But I do however, have a thing on Information Technology. I may not be as good as those nerdy guys who spend their lifetime on their computers, I have thing for discovering new stuff... on the computer. I do spent most of my spare time on the computer. Things I do on my computer? here they are!

1. refresh
2. mozilla firefox
3. plants vs. zombies, cooking academy, turtle oddisey ( i love these games too much)
4. social metwork (twitter, facebook, blogger, etc)
5. remixing songs (my newest hobby)
6.  making a tumblr theme/blog
7. other random things that helps me from boredom

I'll continue this post later cos massive headaches just attacked me kbye ily x

screwed.

So, I stayed in this creepy place called hell (read: school). I hate this school so much ok. Don't be surprised if one day I run away from this hell ok. And what made it worse, is today..
This s#!t starts  when it was Quranic Studies. I was patience  enough this week. This morning my teacher held a Question and Answer session. And so that I asked her without shouting (I shout quite a lot) but then btchs always get their turn. I waited for ages just to ask a question and then I stopped raising my hand to ask when the lesson ends and that's the time the teacher ask me what do i wanna ask. Apparently that's just too late. I left the class. Holy shit I hate today so much just after Zuhur Prayer.
*Canteen*
Me:"Alhamdulillah ya aku gak dapet afterschool detention semester ini."
Shoffa:"Aku baru dapet sekali :("
Me:"Semoga aja aku gak bakal dapet detention ya"
Shoffa:"iyaa."
We continue eating afterwards. Minutes later...
Speaker:"blablablabla pristina"
Wtf was that? probably something study related. but then I hear a scream..
Zahra:"PINGIHH!! KITA DAPET DETENTION"
Goddammit!
Why!
fufufufufufu why do everything went wrong today? What did I do? ffufufufu
Oh and I cried yes sir i did cry. It was too much pressure in a day for me.
After knowing the damn news that I got detention I have the damn science test.
It wasn't really a hard test ok I did well, at least i guess so.
Gotta go stick to the boarding schedule. cya and
Ciao! ;) xoxo

Rehearsal! :D

It's Sunday and yes, I do wake up way too early again. I woke up so fcking damn early this weekend. No idea why. But it's ok tho cos my friends came over to my house! :D
Me, Annisa, Kak Via, Tsabita, Cut Nadia and Kyla were rehearsing for aerobic (practical exam) in my house. Annisa did the music very great! She smashed it! We had a lot of fun during the rehearsal. It was a bit tiring tho.. Oh yeah and we Skyped with the other girls in Raissa's house! It was a cray cray video call. After that we rehearse again and again.. We eat, a lot. After finish rehearsing we play Truth or Dare. Man that was one of the craziest truth or dare I've ever played.. But most of all today was one of the best day of my life! :D xx

One Way Or Another!

Here it is! One Direction - One Way Or Another music video for charity to Comic Relief. It helps the ones who need in Africa and UK. Instead of spending so much money for the video clip, they made theirselves a video clip when they're on tour! Check it out! :D

Wisely pristina.

IT'S FRIDAY FRIDAY GONNA GET DOWN ON FRIDAY! said the girl who is not black at all called Rebecca Black. TGIF!! TGIF!! Said everyone who thinks friday is the day for party. But not to me. 12 hours ago I think I'll have a good friday. But things turned out upside down. Including my mood. I got a very very bad mood after sport. Idk why but the two bff is very yeuurgh to me. They're acting very "weird" to me. They rolled their eyes and talk with words that hurts a lot. I mean, what the hell did they think they're doing? If they both don't like me then tell me! Don't act like a fool! Don't be so childish babes! But please don't get me wrong, not that I want to be friends with them so badly yeuurgh hell no way! I just want them to stop acting so nasty like that. You think I'm begging to be your friends? aca-scuse me hun I really don't :) I have better friends than you and I am glad you're not my friend :D And it is okay to choose friends! Why? Because friends are either like perfume or blacksmith. Good friends will be like perfumes. If your friends are good, they will influence and encourage you to be good also just like perfume sprays its good smell! Bad friends will be like blacksmiths. If your friends are bad, they will encourage and influence you to be bad just like them! Just as blacksmith spreads the bad smelled ashes soaked into your clothes. It is completely okay to choose friends but don't get it wrong! Just because you can choose your friends, you can't make foes! Allah don't like one who make foes because Islam is "peace" I never want to have foes, not even the two bffs. I will just ignore them and let it go. Because no matter what the problem is, life won't stop for anybody. I won't let a pair of friends ruin my day. Never. Because if I let them ruin my day, it means I let them win. And that's not going to happen.
ps. I don't know what hit me either a brick or a stone cos I'm totally being very wise in this post. Hope this short post will inspire you guys and eventually it'll inspire me too!
See ya in the next post! Ciao!
xoxo,
pristina.

Meow!

Typical thursday where we got IT class for two periods. Tons of fun for sure. We study things we enjoy, well at least it is to me. I have this obsession to IT idk I think I was born for IT #kbye
So in the first period, Raissa, Zahra and I were totally bored. We have no idea what the teacher explain and I am looking through my folder and click "pictures" or something. It shows some tumblr pictures and... a cat animation which makes us laugh and giggle so damn hard that the whole class can hear us and we've got two verbal warnings. I can't stand not to laugh, so can raissa and zahra. Our stomach hurts already and zahra tumblr up some cat gifs and turns out to be...

 

This makes us AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

This makes us muahahahahahhaha *stomach hurts*

 

This makes us Muahahahahahahaha *stomach hurts* *cries to zahra to close the picture*

 

This makes us.... HUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FREAKING STOP IT ZEEE STOMACH HURTSS CRYYYY

I swear we truly are the coolest people ever yeah. and oh we're completely normal fyi.

Fangurrl

Just some random photos cos I'm the most boring girl you'll ever know and I feel bored cos tired of being bored cos boredom is boring #whatisthis.

 

Niall stays silent for Red Nose Day!

 

 

True.

 

Jay McGuiness has the cutest hair in this whole damn world.

 

Who allows you to smile like that? Who allows you to be cute? is that even legal? 

 

I don't hold on to the past. The past holds on to me.

 

Photobox eh? Cutest boys on earth<3<3

 

Haven't watch the movie tho :/

 

Why do I and everyone I love pick people who treat us like we're nothing? Fyi logan stop being so cute it kills me.

My turn?

Ew schooldays sucks. I can't wait until I graduate school. I mean yuck who the hell likes school? Well, sometimes I do like school but most of time? TOTAL NO! I mean, it's boring. I've been studying in the same school for almost FIVE freakin years! And yes I'm the kind of person who gets bored easily. Ehehhe:3
And oh I uh, did my speech two days ago. Man it was awful! I did't know it was my turn! So I made the whole thing up on the spot and everybody were lookin at me like what and I was lookin at them like ew what. Everybody applause for me. It gives me a chill. At least they respect my damn speech :p
Oh btw guys please do vote for my babes a.k.a One Direction! They are nominated for three categories! Your votes mean the world to me and to them it just takes seconds to vote for them please do vote for them! :D
Vote it heree ---> http://kca.nick.co.uk/ <------- Vote it here!

That's it. I'm so done.

YaAllah capek bgt rasanya harus terus2an kaya gini.  Kenapa ya orang2 kalo marah tuh gk ngomong aja. Diem2an gitu kan gak enak. Try to talk to me and solve the problem nicely.Grow the hell up! You guys take things way too seriously. Got no sense of humor. Boring hell. I'm so done with you guys. Sabar ada batas nya loh jd don't blame me if I explode and shout the hell on your face cos the way you act makes me SICK ;)
ps. shortest post I made.

All over again.

Tbfh, I'm so freakin tired. freakin tired. For no reason. I'm sick of everything. Literally everything. My classmates are getting worse. I mean, their looks starts again. You know, the look where they think they're everything. Fucking ew get a mirror hun and watch how horrible you are. I don't care if you hate me. At least talk to my face cos my back is not a voicemail! Grow the fvck up! Saying uh huh pristina youre old i take it as a compliment cos you never ever know how to grow up and you kids have no respect to the elders. What do school teach nowadays....

I am so obsessed with these boys I mean look at Max, tom and nathan!!! #TWfanmily

Dramaqueens.

"Excuse me bitch, You don't need to shout"
That's what I always want to say to the freaks in my class who is better considered as an annoying commentator.
 I swear I feel like high-five them right on the face. They're okay. They're such amazing classmates but they gotta learn how to stop giving me the wtf-is-this-girl-doing face before I show my bitch-please-none-of-your-fucking-business face at them too cos they don't know how much I hate them. They're my worst nightmare I swear. I can't describe them with words really. Some of them are very nice but most of the time they silently piss me off and burn my head to flame.They drive me crazy! I'm tired of them commenting on me. Telling me to do things. Holy crap they're just ugh I can't explain it with words. Unfuckingdescribable. Is that all one word? Oh it is now!
I don't know how I feel or how should I feel. I should've feel happy cos nothing's wrong with my life but I feel like everything just don't go the way it should. I'm tired of everything I'm going through.
I'm sick of school. The teachers are annoying af thanks for asking. Well, most of them are. Few of them aren't. Like the nicest teacher on earth who said "Pristina, you have the right to have a say". Let's say, almost every single teacher in my school hates me which is almost true. How the fuck would I have a say if I know they're going to protest against my words? I'm so sick of them that I sometimes think they've lost their minds. They hate me for no reason. I mean, is it because I'm that talkative? What about the others? The others are talkative too! See, I have no right to have a say. They drive me nuts just like my friends do. Aren't teachers supposed to support the student and help out the students in need of motivations and help cos depressed by her friends? Ridiculous school life I have.
Weird teachers, weird friends, who shall I talk to at school? table? lockers? They can make me crazy if they keep on doing it. Well I am already tired of crying and I realized that my tears aren't meaningful anymore.
I wanna go to an empty place like field or something and scream "I hate all my creepy fucking damn friends who thinks they're perfect that they fucking tell me what to do. Don't give a fuck about my life, bitches!" It's my life not theirs. Mind their own fcking business! I mean, bitch please. I am not dying to be your friends or desperate to have friends like yous ew who on earth would do that. I don't care if I don't have friends. I have mates who accept me just the way I am and not commenting no matter what I do. That's the friends I need, friends who dont give a fuck about what I'm doing. Who accept me the way I am. If you can't
accept me the way I am then I can't be your friend and you can't be my friend. How can we get along well if we can't even accept eachother's dark side? "Everybody's got a dark side. Can you love mine?" No I am not asking you to love my dark side but at least accept it and leave it alone!
Hard to believe but I'm totally on the last part of my world. I'm outta my mind I don't even know what happens to me. I'm tired of crying shouting and screaming cos they seem so useless now. Hufft.
I hope things get better cos no one in this world knows how I feel how sad I am in this condition. I just wanna be treated like everybody else. I'm too tired of all these useless dramas. I'm so done with them. So fucking done.

Lyrics worth a thousand feelings.

Hello! in this post  I would like to list of lyrics that I really love and fits me the most. So here it is! Some of them are weird lyrics that's why I also put it in the post haha! This is going to be a very long post since it takes days for me to write these awesome lyrics! :D x
"A day without you is like a year without rain"
"I'm missing you so much, can't help it I'm in love"
"You cast a spell on me spell on me, you hit me like the sky fell on me fell on me"
"And I decided you look well on me well on me"
"You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you"
"Don't you know I'm not attached to material"
"If I'm louder, would you see me?"
"I know we only  met but let's pretend it's love"
"I'm in love with you and all these little things"
"You got a girl that doesn't look a thing like me"
"But on a wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again"
"And I realize the joke is on me"
"So shame on me now"
"We knew this day would come, we know it all along"
"You're perfect at the outside but nothing at the core"
"Stop messing with my mind cos you'll never have my heart"
"When the daylight comes I'll have to go"
"Just let the music play"
"You can have it all, anything you want you can make it yours. anything you want in the world, give it up to me"
"Nothing's too big or small"
"Hell yeah I'm the motherfucking princess"
"She's like 'so whatever'"
"You're the missing piece I need"
"You trynna be cool, you look like a fool to me"
"To see the way you're acting like somebody else gets me frustrating"
"Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?"
"Let's talk this over, it's not like we're dead"
"Don't leave me hanging"
"Was it something I did? Was it something you said?"
"We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it"
"All of the memories so close to me just fade away"
"You've got your dumb friends"\
"You are all the things I thought I knew"
"You'll never have to worry if what I said is true"
"In this crazy world of choices I've only got a view. Either you're coming with me or I'm coming with you"
"You could say that I'm hopeless"
"I don't wanna fake it"
"I don't care what they say it's our life life life"
"I will be rising from the sky like a skyscraper"
"All of my change I spent on you"
"If happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding you like this"
"All these fairytales are full of shit, one more fucking love song I'll be sick"
"She's living in a world and it's on fire"
"Lonely like a highway"
"But you didn't say hi cos I looked away"
"And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life"
"I thought my feelings were gone"
"I gotta dry these tears tonight"
"Cos you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on any longer"
"Cos I prove you wrong that I can move on through this song, so much stronger"
"If heartache was a physical pain I can face it"
"Told yourself that you were right for me"
"I don't even need your love"
"Now you're just somebody that I used to know"
"Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over"
"You know we gettin hotter and hotter, sexy and hotter let's shut it down"
"You didn't know how nice that is but I do"
"Shine bright like a diamond"
"I saw the life inside your eyes"
"So shine bright tonight you and I, we're beautiful like diamonds in the sky"
"Scrolling through my cellphone for the 20th time today, reading the text you sent me again though I memorized it anyway"
"I wanna scream and shout and let it all out"
"I found you in my darkest hour"
"I found you in a river of pure emotion"
"I found you, my only truth"
"I was lost till I found you"
"Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me, but bear this in mind it was meant to be"
"Baby you light up my world like nobody else"
"The us against the world"
"My loneliness is killing me"
"I'm so three thousand and eight, you so two thousand and late"
"I know we only met but let's pretend it's love"
"I don't give a shit no one else can have ya"
"I feel like I'm on top of the world with your love"
"Playboy to the death? oh yes!"
"I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do"
"You don't really want my heart. No, you'd just like to know you can"
"You only love to see me breaking"
"If I could write you a song to make you fall in love I would already have you up under my arms"
"Nobody's a picture perfect"
"But we worth it"
"Under the lights tonight, you turn around and you stole my heart with just one look"
"There I was again tonight, forcing laughter faking smiles. Same old tired lonely place"
"I give it all up but I'm taking back my love"
"You can run you can hide but you can't escape my love"
"Don't make me change my mind"
"It's personal, myself and I"
"I'm weird cos I hate goodbyes"
"It's gotta be you, only you"
"All I wanna do is to have some fu-u-un I gotta feeling that I'm not the only one"
"There's no place in my life for an ego your type"
"Who do you think you are? A super s-t-a-r?"
"To be completely honest it scares me to imagine, what life would be without you?"
"But I'm not giving you up"
"And we won't give up till we run out of desire"
"And yo this fighting shit is getting too old"
"I'm not perfect but I'm tired of this bullshit"
"Please, this ain't even jealousy. She ain't got a thing on me"
"I have a spirit indestructible. A heart that loving was made for"
"Money can't buy us happiness"
"Why is everybody so serious? Acting so damn mysterious"
Hmm I guess this is the part 1 of my fav lyrics so... and oh don't hesitate to ask me what song is it :)

-To be continued-

Daylight.

Yo people wassup? It's Saturday baby! No homeworks, I guess. But wait! I think I have to make a map from my house to my school which is on the topmost of the highest mountain on earth #lebay
Sierra Squared Delta Squared. I got that words which means S2D2 meaning Same Shit Different Day. That's kinda true. I got the same shit everyday of my life. I hate my life thank you for asking, mostly. Oh and Happy Birthday to my beloved friend Indah Fatmawati! Have a blast and have a good year ahead may Allah bless your days always<3<3
Btw, I put Daylight as this post's title cos I'm currently listening to Maroon 5 - Daylight :) And fyi my brother is watching Alvin and the Chipmunks: Chipwrecked which is one of the coolest movie I know. I haven't watch it all the way till the end cos my brother keeps on bugging me. But I watched half of the movie and it impresses me already! Wow good works for the chipmunks.. and chipettes.
Oh and I have some plans that someday will become my greatest memory. I'm not gonna tell it here cos I'm keeping it as a secret and one day you'll all see things you can barely imagine a girl like me can do. Massive things. Good things of course. You'll take your words back, or maybe saying more nasty things to me cos some people just can't hold jealousy. I promise to make my mom and dad proud. And it will eventually make everyone around me proud of who I am.
Oh and if you haven't already, youtube pitch perfect's acapellas. They're perfect.
Troye Sivan: "Watching Pitch Perfect with my cat. Pitch Purrfect."
Idk what else to write since the last time I'm being so inspirational and my surroundings doesn't support my brain to have any ideas to write on my blog so ciao! :P xo

creeping in the IT lab yay me

I'm in the IT lab and making css file stuff. Stuffs I can never understand-.- I love css I just can't master it in short time. I will and should master CSS. Btw, I can't wait to go home and sleep I swear I'm hella tired af. The computers are weird here. Some can access internet, some can't. Some just won't load at all some has a nice rate of speed. Some has photoshops some only has internet explorer. I have no idea why. They should've make it all the same. oh well.
I'm freezing here and I got flu. Nice..
I'm on shoffa's computer. One of the nicest computer here. I swear I can't stand a day more in this hell (read:school) I wanna move :( I'm so tired of all these school stuffs. But my english teacher said, "Be careful what you wish for." Well that's scary. Yes, what if I move from altaqwa to a much scarier school? With scary teachers, friends and curriculum? hiih scary af. So I decided not to move from this hell.
I have to be patient! 2 more years till I can actually break free and gtfo atc.
Oh and being the "SRC" is no exciting. It's sick. Nothing amazing except for being blamed for things I didn't commit #overreacting
And yay! finally with the great help of my IT teacher, I can finally half-finish the html css thingy! Like hell yeah!!
oh and idk what else to write so ciao! :p xx

experiment :p

SICKKKKKKKKKKK

So it's been the 7th day and I get a bit better. In some days, I just can't wake up and feel like puking all the time. The feeling sucks and I have to eat the medicine which makes me even sicker really. thanks for asking.
I was absent for a week and I'm so scared to go to school to see the look of disgust on teachers face looking at me thinking I've been absent for a week for fun. OH please, how I wish I was absent for fun. I was sick. Very sick that I can't even describe how sick I was. I have to eat at least five different medicine which taste like ew just ew. You know what the funny thing is? I've checked to three different doctors and none of them can make me feel a lot better. The last doctor was nice-but weird. He said I couldn't drink juice but buavita, no fruits! strictly I need to drink at least 5 cups of water a day. You see how upside down my world looks like? pfft.
It's Sunday already and gue masih ga punya pulsa buat nyalain paket bbm. Eh sorry that's not what I'm meant to say. I mean, It's Sunday already and I'm still sick, my face is still pale and the skin is peeling itself like weird. My face feels so dry. I wanna puke cos the doctor told me there's something wrong with my stomach. Thats what causes me to feel like puking all the time. Doctor also told me that I have a low blood pressure. it's 90/60 I guess. Normal ones are 180/80. I feel bad.

Floodless jakarta? :/

Long weekend! yay! Friday to Sunday is holiday! I feel like marrying holiday cos I like them too much. lol ok.
So, I suppose my plan is to write my 2013 resolutions and targets lists. But something stops me and I decided to make my 2013 resolutions and targets private.
Oh, yesterday I went to Jakarta and the area I was visiting wasn't flooded. Good thing. I was shopping (srsly shopping isn't my thing AT ALL) and I enjoyed it, a bit.
Yeahhh I'm running out of words so that's it bye.

Goosebumps!

Weird things happen to me, all the time. Like since yesterday, I was addicted to read the book "Goosebumps: Horrorland" I told you I'm not those reader type but this book is one of the best! One of the only books I read! I get addicted to it till I can't even hear the teachers calling out my name and I'm like "huh? what?" I was so into the story. The book drives me insane! I gotta buy the book! have to! must!
I finished "Goosebumps; Night of The Living Dummies" just a couple minutes ago. It was TERRIFYING! I can't stand the fright, my heart beats faster than usual till now, this very second. I hope I won't have a nightmare today. Dearly hope so.

*insert something school related here*

Today wasn't any fun really. Friends said I need help bc One Direction. Oh please, these lifeless mofo definitely definitely have a very nice social life. I don't. Why should I socialize when I have millions directioner pals? :p I have this plain boring life at school and I have this directioner life on twitter. I'm basically Hannah Montana.
I was reading the Goosebumps book all day. You'll probably laugh hearing this but I don't usually read books. I'm not the reader type,I'm the watcher type. I prefer movies than books. I rarely finish books but I nearly never unfinished a movie.
Idk what else to write in this blog. It mainly contains everything in my brain but my brain is empty currently
*backsound The Wanted - Heart Vacancy*
*got no idea what to type, save post, continue listening to Heart Vacancy*

Fake fake fake.

Too tired of those fake schoolmates until I can't remember how to feel anymore. How should I feel? Sad? Happy? Mad? It's all mixed up. A minute they say nice things to me and talk shits behind my back the next minute. Like wtf you're trying to do with me? You hate me? Tell me! How hard it is to tell me if you don't like me? Ohh I know cos probably you think I'm not gonna help you anymore if you tell the truth to me? Forgive me hun,  I forgot that you're only nice to me when you need help. Your life is pathetic. Shame on you. I'd be glad to help anyone whether you're a friend or a foe. I don't need you to treat me nicely like an angel but please just stop being fake and take off those angelic mask in front of me! I'm just too tired. What can I do? When I ask you whether you're mad or not you'll only shake you'll only say no! Tell me the truth oh god didn't you learn how to be honest? If that's the way you gained friends and "fame" you're a complete faggot really.
The only thing I can do now is just to be patient and patient and patient. You have to be patient pris! 2 more years and you'll never see those fake friends again. ameen.

Happy things.

Hey george shelley I am very sorry to report you to the police cos you stole my heart

!

drunk zayn >.<

someone, rita ora, harrehh

max george why so hawt

dat hair!

Drops of painful tears.

-continues-
Most of the annoyance in my school to me is from the schoolmates. I'm not trying to be arrogant but if you were me, you would probably move school or get extreme depression.
I'm already tired of crying and shouting everyday. People nowadays are so heartless that they are so wasteful of their words. The words they used are not the pleasant ones but the offending words. They don't know how much it freaking hurts me to the soul. I know it sounded crazy but the way they judge me, offend me and insult me makes me want to drown them into a well and let them try to survive going up by themselves so that they feel how I feel to survive my days at school with them torturing me deeply. I'm truly madly deeply in pain. It feels like all the tears I dropped is the pain I gained everyday. If only they know how much it hurts, if only they know..
But nothing to regret now, I can't do anything to them. Teachers are always at their side. Almost none of the teachers are in my side cos they think I'm the naughtiest kid. Like wtf.
I am always the one who must (forcefully) say sorry, ask for apology, asking whether they're mad at me or not but THEY are the one who makes me mad all the time! They're telling me about one particular thing but they're saying that because they just wanna show that I'm bad and they're better than me, not because they care me. I'm sure they don't know the difference between care and bullshit cos they think it's the same. oh please.
My dearest friends who saw this, I'm a 14 years old girl which is nearly 15. I'm not that stupid to not realize the difference between bullshit and care. Besides, you shouldn't have to rule or even touch my life. What I am outside of the school is not your fcking business so please mind your own damn hell important business please! You have life, so have I. You have privacy, so have I. You have CHOICE, so have I! If you don't respect my choice, my privacy and my life then don't be surprised if someone does the same.
I  have learned that if you treat people badly, you will be treated badly too by anyone. Probably not the one whom you treat badly but someone unpredictable.
But sigh, what can I do? I have to survive these big storms for few more years. It is a long time for me, it's been only the 5th year I studied at this school and this fifth year is the first time they judged me about this one particular thing.
What I can do is only to accept the fact that these people who judged me are piece of s#!t from hell who just can't accept the choices I made. No, I don't want to cry another drops of tears because of this issues. Not anymore, they don't worth my tears. There are lots and lots of more important stuffs which are worth my tears. Tears aren't always sad you know, happiness causes tears too! But the tears they gave me are tears of extreme sadness. I don't want all these disaster to happen again. I don't want these nightmares again, I wanna wake up from these nightmares. Too tired. Way too tired.
ps. I'm not sorry for all my words to those who judged me because your words and action towards me is way more painful than these words I said :)
xoxo,
Pingih.

Hell in hell.

It's just the second day I went to school after I was absent for a week and I'm sick of school already. You know people said that "School is the best time of your life." Pfft. I mean, they definitely don't know the school life of mine. You know what's the best term to define school? Hell. You know why? cos your brain is burned because of those difficult subjects taught by the killer teachers. -happens to me all the time-
And you know what's the worst part of my school life? To meet my boring annoying creepy classmates. You should've known why did I put "Hell in hell" as the title of this post because today I'm going to tell you about my class.
My class is best defined as hell in hell. The reason behind this? you see, school is hell to me. Class is the higher level of hell but somehow located in hell so I call my class hell in hell. Understood? no? good.
The second day of school has been really sucks. You know why? First of all, I've been absent for a week and I can't understand a single thing. I feel like my brain is going to explode and the teachers don't care. And I have to do an assignment.
Teacher: "Tell me your previous scores."
Me:"*whispered* wait what score?"
Friend:"We have remember 1-2 and think no. 3"
Me:"Miss, can I do it after this and I'll give you the score afterwards?"
Teacher:"Sure, and oh your score will be decreased by one."
Me:"WHAAAT? why??"
Teacher:"Cos you didn't do it on time"
Ugh there's nothing else I can say to her. If I said another word she'll be like "GET OUT OF MY CLASS!". I mean, I wouldn't want to be absent. But nevermind I can never change her mind cos she hates me as much as I hate her. sigh.

-To be continued-

HELLOO :3

HELLO :3 My brand new blog is here! It's nothing really it's just that I need a place to express my randomness and blogger is the perfect one I guess ehehehe
So heyy I'd like to tell you about meeehhh! I'm Pingih -thats my silly name- I live in this crazy world called 'earth' and study in this freaky place called 'school'. My life has been really good before alphabets introduce themselves to Math, thank you for asking. I'm 14 and I have this unhealthy obsession to this boyband called One Direction. You probably live in Mars if you don't know One Direction cos they're like the biggest boyband on earth and the first british boyband to hit #1 in America. Wanna know more about One Direction? nahh probably not telling you here cos it's gonna take ages to tell you about them. Speaking of One Direction, I heart this guy called Zayn Jawaad Malik who happens to be very handsome.I think I fancy him. Doesnt this sentence look familiar to you? oh yes it is if you're Narnian cos Susan used to say that in the beginning of Narnia 3! One thing you should keep in mind  after reading this is that you should look up to One Direction on any search engine and look at how awesome and adorable they are! If you don't find any of the 1D lads unattractive, you're probably a lesbian loljk.
Well, the clock in my laptop shows 9:44pm and I'm still not sleepy at all. You know what the bad thing is? I have school tomorrow-.- I have to meet those annoying creepy friends all over again and those two-faced btches who just think they're perfect and judge me as always about one nonsense thing. I feel like suicide when I'm at school, especially when everyone is judging me and the teachers support them and I'm like why the fck am I even here. I wanna disappear in life when they do that. They just don't know how much it hurts. It hurts a lot with your words like knives and swords and the weapon that you used against me. After you knocked me down you didn't do anything instead of saying "are you mad at me?" "are you alright?" "did my words offended you?" Btch please, honey you don't have to be a two-faced btch if you don't like me say it to my face not to my ass! you're talking behind my back and acted like an angel in front of me. What even. I don't care if you commented on me anymore cos I am me and it's none of your fcking business.
Uhm, I'm sorry for the bad words and a bit rude opening of my blog but yeah ehehehehe.
see ya in the next post!
love,
Pingih
xoxo