fml.

because everything I do is always wrong, everything I do gets me in trouble. What's my point of living then? To torture myself? lol at my life. fml.

Accident.

I'm in an extremely bad mood so here is an embarrassing story that makes my mood even worst.
So last Monday, I was walking with my friend. It was raining and the floor is very slippery. We were joking and then "AAAAHHHHH KEPALA AKU SAKIT BANGET" cried a girl who fell and her head and hand hit the floor. Yep, that's me :) I think everyone heard me screaming and crying and damn how I wish I can disappear in that moment. My head still hurts until now. Really hurts. And afterschool, everyone at school asked me, "Pristina, did you just cry?" Dammit, I should never cry that hard ugh. Now the whole school knows I cried. It was so fucking embarrassing ugh. From now on I will be very careful walkingin the school. I dom't want things like that to happen again.
alright this is the only paragraph that popped up in my head, cant think of any more sentences so ciao! ;) xx

Sick, again.

Heyyyaaaaa I'm in the IT lab and I was given a task to make the float CSS thingy. Turned out to be a horrible plain white result. The CSS effect doesn't show up. Ugh. I hate it when I fail. Even tho, my life is full of failure lol.
So here's the thing. I'm sick and I have to go to school cos of the Gym Rehearsal and SRC meeting thingy. I went to the sick bay and sleep for hours. The side effect of the medicine I just ate this morning is heavy sleepy. You know, I don't want to be sick. No one wants to be sick. So please don't say something about my illness to joke about because when I hear someone says I'm weak or stuff like that, it hurts. It really does hurt ok. Think before you speak. You don't know about me. I swear to god I don't wanna be sick. Be thankful if you're not sick, not calling someone a weak girl or smthng. If you ever call me weak then you surely are a heartless person. Heartless. May Allah bless you, tho.

screwed.

So, I stayed in this creepy place called hell (read: school). I hate this school so much ok. Don't be surprised if one day I run away from this hell ok. And what made it worse, is today..
This s#!t starts  when it was Quranic Studies. I was patience  enough this week. This morning my teacher held a Question and Answer session. And so that I asked her without shouting (I shout quite a lot) but then btchs always get their turn. I waited for ages just to ask a question and then I stopped raising my hand to ask when the lesson ends and that's the time the teacher ask me what do i wanna ask. Apparently that's just too late. I left the class. Holy shit I hate today so much just after Zuhur Prayer.
*Canteen*
Me:"Alhamdulillah ya aku gak dapet afterschool detention semester ini."
Shoffa:"Aku baru dapet sekali :("
Me:"Semoga aja aku gak bakal dapet detention ya"
Shoffa:"iyaa."
We continue eating afterwards. Minutes later...
Speaker:"blablablabla pristina"
Wtf was that? probably something study related. but then I hear a scream..
Zahra:"PINGIHH!! KITA DAPET DETENTION"
Goddammit!
Why!
fufufufufufu why do everything went wrong today? What did I do? ffufufufu
Oh and I cried yes sir i did cry. It was too much pressure in a day for me.
After knowing the damn news that I got detention I have the damn science test.
It wasn't really a hard test ok I did well, at least i guess so.
Gotta go stick to the boarding schedule. cya and
Ciao! ;) xoxo

Wisely pristina.

IT'S FRIDAY FRIDAY GONNA GET DOWN ON FRIDAY! said the girl who is not black at all called Rebecca Black. TGIF!! TGIF!! Said everyone who thinks friday is the day for party. But not to me. 12 hours ago I think I'll have a good friday. But things turned out upside down. Including my mood. I got a very very bad mood after sport. Idk why but the two bff is very yeuurgh to me. They're acting very "weird" to me. They rolled their eyes and talk with words that hurts a lot. I mean, what the hell did they think they're doing? If they both don't like me then tell me! Don't act like a fool! Don't be so childish babes! But please don't get me wrong, not that I want to be friends with them so badly yeuurgh hell no way! I just want them to stop acting so nasty like that. You think I'm begging to be your friends? aca-scuse me hun I really don't :) I have better friends than you and I am glad you're not my friend :D And it is okay to choose friends! Why? Because friends are either like perfume or blacksmith. Good friends will be like perfumes. If your friends are good, they will influence and encourage you to be good also just like perfume sprays its good smell! Bad friends will be like blacksmiths. If your friends are bad, they will encourage and influence you to be bad just like them! Just as blacksmith spreads the bad smelled ashes soaked into your clothes. It is completely okay to choose friends but don't get it wrong! Just because you can choose your friends, you can't make foes! Allah don't like one who make foes because Islam is "peace" I never want to have foes, not even the two bffs. I will just ignore them and let it go. Because no matter what the problem is, life won't stop for anybody. I won't let a pair of friends ruin my day. Never. Because if I let them ruin my day, it means I let them win. And that's not going to happen.
ps. I don't know what hit me either a brick or a stone cos I'm totally being very wise in this post. Hope this short post will inspire you guys and eventually it'll inspire me too!
See ya in the next post! Ciao!
xoxo,
pristina.

That's it. I'm so done.

YaAllah capek bgt rasanya harus terus2an kaya gini.  Kenapa ya orang2 kalo marah tuh gk ngomong aja. Diem2an gitu kan gak enak. Try to talk to me and solve the problem nicely.Grow the hell up! You guys take things way too seriously. Got no sense of humor. Boring hell. I'm so done with you guys. Sabar ada batas nya loh jd don't blame me if I explode and shout the hell on your face cos the way you act makes me SICK ;)
ps. shortest post I made.

Dramaqueens.

"Excuse me bitch, You don't need to shout"
That's what I always want to say to the freaks in my class who is better considered as an annoying commentator.
 I swear I feel like high-five them right on the face. They're okay. They're such amazing classmates but they gotta learn how to stop giving me the wtf-is-this-girl-doing face before I show my bitch-please-none-of-your-fucking-business face at them too cos they don't know how much I hate them. They're my worst nightmare I swear. I can't describe them with words really. Some of them are very nice but most of the time they silently piss me off and burn my head to flame.They drive me crazy! I'm tired of them commenting on me. Telling me to do things. Holy crap they're just ugh I can't explain it with words. Unfuckingdescribable. Is that all one word? Oh it is now!
I don't know how I feel or how should I feel. I should've feel happy cos nothing's wrong with my life but I feel like everything just don't go the way it should. I'm tired of everything I'm going through.
I'm sick of school. The teachers are annoying af thanks for asking. Well, most of them are. Few of them aren't. Like the nicest teacher on earth who said "Pristina, you have the right to have a say". Let's say, almost every single teacher in my school hates me which is almost true. How the fuck would I have a say if I know they're going to protest against my words? I'm so sick of them that I sometimes think they've lost their minds. They hate me for no reason. I mean, is it because I'm that talkative? What about the others? The others are talkative too! See, I have no right to have a say. They drive me nuts just like my friends do. Aren't teachers supposed to support the student and help out the students in need of motivations and help cos depressed by her friends? Ridiculous school life I have.
Weird teachers, weird friends, who shall I talk to at school? table? lockers? They can make me crazy if they keep on doing it. Well I am already tired of crying and I realized that my tears aren't meaningful anymore.
I wanna go to an empty place like field or something and scream "I hate all my creepy fucking damn friends who thinks they're perfect that they fucking tell me what to do. Don't give a fuck about my life, bitches!" It's my life not theirs. Mind their own fcking business! I mean, bitch please. I am not dying to be your friends or desperate to have friends like yous ew who on earth would do that. I don't care if I don't have friends. I have mates who accept me just the way I am and not commenting no matter what I do. That's the friends I need, friends who dont give a fuck about what I'm doing. Who accept me the way I am. If you can't
accept me the way I am then I can't be your friend and you can't be my friend. How can we get along well if we can't even accept eachother's dark side? "Everybody's got a dark side. Can you love mine?" No I am not asking you to love my dark side but at least accept it and leave it alone!
Hard to believe but I'm totally on the last part of my world. I'm outta my mind I don't even know what happens to me. I'm tired of crying shouting and screaming cos they seem so useless now. Hufft.
I hope things get better cos no one in this world knows how I feel how sad I am in this condition. I just wanna be treated like everybody else. I'm too tired of all these useless dramas. I'm so done with them. So fucking done.

Daylight.

Yo people wassup? It's Saturday baby! No homeworks, I guess. But wait! I think I have to make a map from my house to my school which is on the topmost of the highest mountain on earth #lebay
Sierra Squared Delta Squared. I got that words which means S2D2 meaning Same Shit Different Day. That's kinda true. I got the same shit everyday of my life. I hate my life thank you for asking, mostly. Oh and Happy Birthday to my beloved friend Indah Fatmawati! Have a blast and have a good year ahead may Allah bless your days always<3<3
Btw, I put Daylight as this post's title cos I'm currently listening to Maroon 5 - Daylight :) And fyi my brother is watching Alvin and the Chipmunks: Chipwrecked which is one of the coolest movie I know. I haven't watch it all the way till the end cos my brother keeps on bugging me. But I watched half of the movie and it impresses me already! Wow good works for the chipmunks.. and chipettes.
Oh and I have some plans that someday will become my greatest memory. I'm not gonna tell it here cos I'm keeping it as a secret and one day you'll all see things you can barely imagine a girl like me can do. Massive things. Good things of course. You'll take your words back, or maybe saying more nasty things to me cos some people just can't hold jealousy. I promise to make my mom and dad proud. And it will eventually make everyone around me proud of who I am.
Oh and if you haven't already, youtube pitch perfect's acapellas. They're perfect.
Troye Sivan: "Watching Pitch Perfect with my cat. Pitch Purrfect."
Idk what else to write since the last time I'm being so inspirational and my surroundings doesn't support my brain to have any ideas to write on my blog so ciao! :P xo

creeping in the IT lab yay me

I'm in the IT lab and making css file stuff. Stuffs I can never understand-.- I love css I just can't master it in short time. I will and should master CSS. Btw, I can't wait to go home and sleep I swear I'm hella tired af. The computers are weird here. Some can access internet, some can't. Some just won't load at all some has a nice rate of speed. Some has photoshops some only has internet explorer. I have no idea why. They should've make it all the same. oh well.
I'm freezing here and I got flu. Nice..
I'm on shoffa's computer. One of the nicest computer here. I swear I can't stand a day more in this hell (read:school) I wanna move :( I'm so tired of all these school stuffs. But my english teacher said, "Be careful what you wish for." Well that's scary. Yes, what if I move from altaqwa to a much scarier school? With scary teachers, friends and curriculum? hiih scary af. So I decided not to move from this hell.
I have to be patient! 2 more years till I can actually break free and gtfo atc.
Oh and being the "SRC" is no exciting. It's sick. Nothing amazing except for being blamed for things I didn't commit #overreacting
And yay! finally with the great help of my IT teacher, I can finally half-finish the html css thingy! Like hell yeah!!
oh and idk what else to write so ciao! :p xx

SICKKKKKKKKKKK

So it's been the 7th day and I get a bit better. In some days, I just can't wake up and feel like puking all the time. The feeling sucks and I have to eat the medicine which makes me even sicker really. thanks for asking.
I was absent for a week and I'm so scared to go to school to see the look of disgust on teachers face looking at me thinking I've been absent for a week for fun. OH please, how I wish I was absent for fun. I was sick. Very sick that I can't even describe how sick I was. I have to eat at least five different medicine which taste like ew just ew. You know what the funny thing is? I've checked to three different doctors and none of them can make me feel a lot better. The last doctor was nice-but weird. He said I couldn't drink juice but buavita, no fruits! strictly I need to drink at least 5 cups of water a day. You see how upside down my world looks like? pfft.
It's Sunday already and gue masih ga punya pulsa buat nyalain paket bbm. Eh sorry that's not what I'm meant to say. I mean, It's Sunday already and I'm still sick, my face is still pale and the skin is peeling itself like weird. My face feels so dry. I wanna puke cos the doctor told me there's something wrong with my stomach. Thats what causes me to feel like puking all the time. Doctor also told me that I have a low blood pressure. it's 90/60 I guess. Normal ones are 180/80. I feel bad.

Goosebumps!

Weird things happen to me, all the time. Like since yesterday, I was addicted to read the book "Goosebumps: Horrorland" I told you I'm not those reader type but this book is one of the best! One of the only books I read! I get addicted to it till I can't even hear the teachers calling out my name and I'm like "huh? what?" I was so into the story. The book drives me insane! I gotta buy the book! have to! must!
I finished "Goosebumps; Night of The Living Dummies" just a couple minutes ago. It was TERRIFYING! I can't stand the fright, my heart beats faster than usual till now, this very second. I hope I won't have a nightmare today. Dearly hope so.

*insert something school related here*

Today wasn't any fun really. Friends said I need help bc One Direction. Oh please, these lifeless mofo definitely definitely have a very nice social life. I don't. Why should I socialize when I have millions directioner pals? :p I have this plain boring life at school and I have this directioner life on twitter. I'm basically Hannah Montana.
I was reading the Goosebumps book all day. You'll probably laugh hearing this but I don't usually read books. I'm not the reader type,I'm the watcher type. I prefer movies than books. I rarely finish books but I nearly never unfinished a movie.
Idk what else to write in this blog. It mainly contains everything in my brain but my brain is empty currently
*backsound The Wanted - Heart Vacancy*
*got no idea what to type, save post, continue listening to Heart Vacancy*

Fake fake fake.

Too tired of those fake schoolmates until I can't remember how to feel anymore. How should I feel? Sad? Happy? Mad? It's all mixed up. A minute they say nice things to me and talk shits behind my back the next minute. Like wtf you're trying to do with me? You hate me? Tell me! How hard it is to tell me if you don't like me? Ohh I know cos probably you think I'm not gonna help you anymore if you tell the truth to me? Forgive me hun,  I forgot that you're only nice to me when you need help. Your life is pathetic. Shame on you. I'd be glad to help anyone whether you're a friend or a foe. I don't need you to treat me nicely like an angel but please just stop being fake and take off those angelic mask in front of me! I'm just too tired. What can I do? When I ask you whether you're mad or not you'll only shake you'll only say no! Tell me the truth oh god didn't you learn how to be honest? If that's the way you gained friends and "fame" you're a complete faggot really.
The only thing I can do now is just to be patient and patient and patient. You have to be patient pris! 2 more years and you'll never see those fake friends again. ameen.

Hell in hell.

It's just the second day I went to school after I was absent for a week and I'm sick of school already. You know people said that "School is the best time of your life." Pfft. I mean, they definitely don't know the school life of mine. You know what's the best term to define school? Hell. You know why? cos your brain is burned because of those difficult subjects taught by the killer teachers. -happens to me all the time-
And you know what's the worst part of my school life? To meet my boring annoying creepy classmates. You should've known why did I put "Hell in hell" as the title of this post because today I'm going to tell you about my class.
My class is best defined as hell in hell. The reason behind this? you see, school is hell to me. Class is the higher level of hell but somehow located in hell so I call my class hell in hell. Understood? no? good.
The second day of school has been really sucks. You know why? First of all, I've been absent for a week and I can't understand a single thing. I feel like my brain is going to explode and the teachers don't care. And I have to do an assignment.
Teacher: "Tell me your previous scores."
Me:"*whispered* wait what score?"
Friend:"We have remember 1-2 and think no. 3"
Me:"Miss, can I do it after this and I'll give you the score afterwards?"
Teacher:"Sure, and oh your score will be decreased by one."
Me:"WHAAAT? why??"
Teacher:"Cos you didn't do it on time"
Ugh there's nothing else I can say to her. If I said another word she'll be like "GET OUT OF MY CLASS!". I mean, I wouldn't want to be absent. But nevermind I can never change her mind cos she hates me as much as I hate her. sigh.

-To be continued-

HELLOO :3

HELLO :3 My brand new blog is here! It's nothing really it's just that I need a place to express my randomness and blogger is the perfect one I guess ehehehe
So heyy I'd like to tell you about meeehhh! I'm Pingih -thats my silly name- I live in this crazy world called 'earth' and study in this freaky place called 'school'. My life has been really good before alphabets introduce themselves to Math, thank you for asking. I'm 14 and I have this unhealthy obsession to this boyband called One Direction. You probably live in Mars if you don't know One Direction cos they're like the biggest boyband on earth and the first british boyband to hit #1 in America. Wanna know more about One Direction? nahh probably not telling you here cos it's gonna take ages to tell you about them. Speaking of One Direction, I heart this guy called Zayn Jawaad Malik who happens to be very handsome.I think I fancy him. Doesnt this sentence look familiar to you? oh yes it is if you're Narnian cos Susan used to say that in the beginning of Narnia 3! One thing you should keep in mind  after reading this is that you should look up to One Direction on any search engine and look at how awesome and adorable they are! If you don't find any of the 1D lads unattractive, you're probably a lesbian loljk.
Well, the clock in my laptop shows 9:44pm and I'm still not sleepy at all. You know what the bad thing is? I have school tomorrow-.- I have to meet those annoying creepy friends all over again and those two-faced btches who just think they're perfect and judge me as always about one nonsense thing. I feel like suicide when I'm at school, especially when everyone is judging me and the teachers support them and I'm like why the fck am I even here. I wanna disappear in life when they do that. They just don't know how much it hurts. It hurts a lot with your words like knives and swords and the weapon that you used against me. After you knocked me down you didn't do anything instead of saying "are you mad at me?" "are you alright?" "did my words offended you?" Btch please, honey you don't have to be a two-faced btch if you don't like me say it to my face not to my ass! you're talking behind my back and acted like an angel in front of me. What even. I don't care if you commented on me anymore cos I am me and it's none of your fcking business.
Uhm, I'm sorry for the bad words and a bit rude opening of my blog but yeah ehehehehe.
see ya in the next post!
love,
Pingih
xoxo