I am so obsessed with these boys I mean look at Max, tom and nathan!!! #TWfanmily
Rabu, 13 Februari 2013
Dramaqueens.
"Excuse me bitch, You don't need to shout"
That's what I always want to say to the freaks in my class who is better considered as an annoying commentator.
I swear I feel like high-five them right on the face. They're okay. They're such amazing classmates but they gotta learn how to stop giving me the wtf-is-this-girl-doing face before I show my bitch-please-none-of-your-fucking-business face at them too cos they don't know how much I hate them. They're my worst nightmare I swear. I can't describe them with words really. Some of them are very nice but most of the time they silently piss me off and burn my head to flame.They drive me crazy! I'm tired of them commenting on me. Telling me to do things. Holy crap they're just ugh I can't explain it with words. Unfuckingdescribable. Is that all one word? Oh it is now!
I don't know how I feel or how should I feel. I should've feel happy cos nothing's wrong with my life but I feel like everything just don't go the way it should. I'm tired of everything I'm going through.
I'm sick of school. The teachers are annoying af thanks for asking. Well, most of them are. Few of them aren't. Like the nicest teacher on earth who said "Pristina, you have the right to have a say". Let's say, almost every single teacher in my school hates me which is almost true. How the fuck would I have a say if I know they're going to protest against my words? I'm so sick of them that I sometimes think they've lost their minds. They hate me for no reason. I mean, is it because I'm that talkative? What about the others? The others are talkative too! See, I have no right to have a say. They drive me nuts just like my friends do. Aren't teachers supposed to support the student and help out the students in need of motivations and help cos depressed by her friends? Ridiculous school life I have.
Weird teachers, weird friends, who shall I talk to at school? table? lockers? They can make me crazy if they keep on doing it. Well I am already tired of crying and I realized that my tears aren't meaningful anymore.
I wanna go to an empty place like field or something and scream "I hate all my creepy fucking damn friends who thinks they're perfect that they fucking tell me what to do. Don't give a fuck about my life, bitches!" It's my life not theirs. Mind their own fcking business! I mean, bitch please. I am not dying to be your friends or desperate to have friends like yous ew who on earth would do that. I don't care if I don't have friends. I have mates who accept me just the way I am and not commenting no matter what I do. That's the friends I need, friends who dont give a fuck about what I'm doing. Who accept me the way I am. If you can't
accept me the way I am then I can't be your friend and you can't be my friend. How can we get along well if we can't even accept eachother's dark side? "Everybody's got a dark side. Can you love mine?" No I am not asking you to love my dark side but at least accept it and leave it alone!
Hard to believe but I'm totally on the last part of my world. I'm outta my mind I don't even know what happens to me. I'm tired of crying shouting and screaming cos they seem so useless now. Hufft.
I hope things get better cos no one in this world knows how I feel how sad I am in this condition. I just wanna be treated like everybody else. I'm too tired of all these useless dramas. I'm so done with them. So fucking done.
That's what I always want to say to the freaks in my class who is better considered as an annoying commentator.
I swear I feel like high-five them right on the face. They're okay. They're such amazing classmates but they gotta learn how to stop giving me the wtf-is-this-girl-doing face before I show my bitch-please-none-of-your-fucking-business face at them too cos they don't know how much I hate them. They're my worst nightmare I swear. I can't describe them with words really. Some of them are very nice but most of the time they silently piss me off and burn my head to flame.They drive me crazy! I'm tired of them commenting on me. Telling me to do things. Holy crap they're just ugh I can't explain it with words. Unfuckingdescribable. Is that all one word? Oh it is now!
I don't know how I feel or how should I feel. I should've feel happy cos nothing's wrong with my life but I feel like everything just don't go the way it should. I'm tired of everything I'm going through.
I'm sick of school. The teachers are annoying af thanks for asking. Well, most of them are. Few of them aren't. Like the nicest teacher on earth who said "Pristina, you have the right to have a say". Let's say, almost every single teacher in my school hates me which is almost true. How the fuck would I have a say if I know they're going to protest against my words? I'm so sick of them that I sometimes think they've lost their minds. They hate me for no reason. I mean, is it because I'm that talkative? What about the others? The others are talkative too! See, I have no right to have a say. They drive me nuts just like my friends do. Aren't teachers supposed to support the student and help out the students in need of motivations and help cos depressed by her friends? Ridiculous school life I have.
Weird teachers, weird friends, who shall I talk to at school? table? lockers? They can make me crazy if they keep on doing it. Well I am already tired of crying and I realized that my tears aren't meaningful anymore.
I wanna go to an empty place like field or something and scream "I hate all my creepy fucking damn friends who thinks they're perfect that they fucking tell me what to do. Don't give a fuck about my life, bitches!" It's my life not theirs. Mind their own fcking business! I mean, bitch please. I am not dying to be your friends or desperate to have friends like yous ew who on earth would do that. I don't care if I don't have friends. I have mates who accept me just the way I am and not commenting no matter what I do. That's the friends I need, friends who dont give a fuck about what I'm doing. Who accept me the way I am. If you can't
accept me the way I am then I can't be your friend and you can't be my friend. How can we get along well if we can't even accept eachother's dark side? "Everybody's got a dark side. Can you love mine?" No I am not asking you to love my dark side but at least accept it and leave it alone!
Hard to believe but I'm totally on the last part of my world. I'm outta my mind I don't even know what happens to me. I'm tired of crying shouting and screaming cos they seem so useless now. Hufft.
I hope things get better cos no one in this world knows how I feel how sad I am in this condition. I just wanna be treated like everybody else. I'm too tired of all these useless dramas. I'm so done with them. So fucking done.
Minggu, 10 Februari 2013
Lyrics worth a thousand feelings.
Hello! in this post I would like to list of lyrics that I really love and fits me the most. So here it is! Some of them are weird lyrics that's why I also put it in the post haha! This is going to be a very long post since it takes days for me to write these awesome lyrics! :D x
"A day without you is like a year without rain"
"I'm missing you so much, can't help it I'm in love"
"You cast a spell on me spell on me, you hit me like the sky fell on me fell on me"
"And I decided you look well on me well on me"
"You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you"
"Don't you know I'm not attached to material"
"If I'm louder, would you see me?"
"I know we only met but let's pretend it's love"
"I'm in love with you and all these little things"
"You got a girl that doesn't look a thing like me"
"But on a wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again"
"And I realize the joke is on me"
"So shame on me now"
"We knew this day would come, we know it all along"
"You're perfect at the outside but nothing at the core"
"Stop messing with my mind cos you'll never have my heart"
"When the daylight comes I'll have to go"
"Just let the music play"
"You can have it all, anything you want you can make it yours. anything you want in the world, give it up to me"
"Nothing's too big or small"
"Hell yeah I'm the motherfucking princess"
"She's like 'so whatever'"
"You're the missing piece I need"
"You trynna be cool, you look like a fool to me"
"To see the way you're acting like somebody else gets me frustrating"
"Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?"
"Let's talk this over, it's not like we're dead"
"Don't leave me hanging"
"Was it something I did? Was it something you said?"
"We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it"
"All of the memories so close to me just fade away"
"You've got your dumb friends"\
"You are all the things I thought I knew"
"You'll never have to worry if what I said is true"
"In this crazy world of choices I've only got a view. Either you're coming with me or I'm coming with you"
"You could say that I'm hopeless"
"I don't wanna fake it"
"I don't care what they say it's our life life life"
"I will be rising from the sky like a skyscraper"
"All of my change I spent on you"
"If happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding you like this"
"All these fairytales are full of shit, one more fucking love song I'll be sick"
"She's living in a world and it's on fire"
"Lonely like a highway"
"But you didn't say hi cos I looked away"
"And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life"
"I thought my feelings were gone"
"I gotta dry these tears tonight"
"Cos you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on any longer"
"Cos I prove you wrong that I can move on through this song, so much stronger"
"If heartache was a physical pain I can face it"
"Told yourself that you were right for me"
"I don't even need your love"
"Now you're just somebody that I used to know"
"Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over"
"You know we gettin hotter and hotter, sexy and hotter let's shut it down"
"You didn't know how nice that is but I do"
"Shine bright like a diamond"
"I saw the life inside your eyes"
"So shine bright tonight you and I, we're beautiful like diamonds in the sky"
"Scrolling through my cellphone for the 20th time today, reading the text you sent me again though I memorized it anyway"
"I wanna scream and shout and let it all out"
"I found you in my darkest hour"
"I found you in a river of pure emotion"
"I found you, my only truth"
"I was lost till I found you"
"Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me, but bear this in mind it was meant to be"
"Baby you light up my world like nobody else"
"The us against the world"
"My loneliness is killing me"
"I'm so three thousand and eight, you so two thousand and late"
"I know we only met but let's pretend it's love"
"I don't give a shit no one else can have ya"
"I feel like I'm on top of the world with your love"
"Playboy to the death? oh yes!"
"I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do"
"You don't really want my heart. No, you'd just like to know you can"
"You only love to see me breaking"
"If I could write you a song to make you fall in love I would already have you up under my arms"
"Nobody's a picture perfect"
"But we worth it"
"Under the lights tonight, you turn around and you stole my heart with just one look"
"There I was again tonight, forcing laughter faking smiles. Same old tired lonely place"
"I give it all up but I'm taking back my love"
"You can run you can hide but you can't escape my love"
"Don't make me change my mind"
"It's personal, myself and I"
"I'm weird cos I hate goodbyes"
"It's gotta be you, only you"
"All I wanna do is to have some fu-u-un I gotta feeling that I'm not the only one"
"There's no place in my life for an ego your type"
"Who do you think you are? A super s-t-a-r?"
"To be completely honest it scares me to imagine, what life would be without you?"
"But I'm not giving you up"
"And we won't give up till we run out of desire"
"And yo this fighting shit is getting too old"
"I'm not perfect but I'm tired of this bullshit"
"Please, this ain't even jealousy. She ain't got a thing on me"
"I have a spirit indestructible. A heart that loving was made for"
"Money can't buy us happiness"
"Why is everybody so serious? Acting so damn mysterious"
Hmm I guess this is the part 1 of my fav lyrics so... and oh don't hesitate to ask me what song is it :)
"A day without you is like a year without rain"
"I'm missing you so much, can't help it I'm in love"
"You cast a spell on me spell on me, you hit me like the sky fell on me fell on me"
"And I decided you look well on me well on me"
"You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you"
"Don't you know I'm not attached to material"
"If I'm louder, would you see me?"
"I know we only met but let's pretend it's love"
"I'm in love with you and all these little things"
"You got a girl that doesn't look a thing like me"
"But on a wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again"
"And I realize the joke is on me"
"So shame on me now"
"We knew this day would come, we know it all along"
"You're perfect at the outside but nothing at the core"
"Stop messing with my mind cos you'll never have my heart"
"When the daylight comes I'll have to go"
"Just let the music play"
"You can have it all, anything you want you can make it yours. anything you want in the world, give it up to me"
"Nothing's too big or small"
"Hell yeah I'm the motherfucking princess"
"She's like 'so whatever'"
"You're the missing piece I need"
"You trynna be cool, you look like a fool to me"
"To see the way you're acting like somebody else gets me frustrating"
"Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?"
"Let's talk this over, it's not like we're dead"
"Don't leave me hanging"
"Was it something I did? Was it something you said?"
"We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it"
"All of the memories so close to me just fade away"
"You've got your dumb friends"\
"You are all the things I thought I knew"
"You'll never have to worry if what I said is true"
"In this crazy world of choices I've only got a view. Either you're coming with me or I'm coming with you"
"You could say that I'm hopeless"
"I don't wanna fake it"
"I don't care what they say it's our life life life"
"I will be rising from the sky like a skyscraper"
"All of my change I spent on you"
"If happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding you like this"
"All these fairytales are full of shit, one more fucking love song I'll be sick"
"She's living in a world and it's on fire"
"Lonely like a highway"
"But you didn't say hi cos I looked away"
"And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life"
"I thought my feelings were gone"
"I gotta dry these tears tonight"
"Cos you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on any longer"
"Cos I prove you wrong that I can move on through this song, so much stronger"
"If heartache was a physical pain I can face it"
"Told yourself that you were right for me"
"I don't even need your love"
"Now you're just somebody that I used to know"
"Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over"
"You know we gettin hotter and hotter, sexy and hotter let's shut it down"
"You didn't know how nice that is but I do"
"Shine bright like a diamond"
"I saw the life inside your eyes"
"So shine bright tonight you and I, we're beautiful like diamonds in the sky"
"Scrolling through my cellphone for the 20th time today, reading the text you sent me again though I memorized it anyway"
"I wanna scream and shout and let it all out"
"I found you in my darkest hour"
"I found you in a river of pure emotion"
"I found you, my only truth"
"I was lost till I found you"
"Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me, but bear this in mind it was meant to be"
"Baby you light up my world like nobody else"
"The us against the world"
"My loneliness is killing me"
"I'm so three thousand and eight, you so two thousand and late"
"I know we only met but let's pretend it's love"
"I don't give a shit no one else can have ya"
"I feel like I'm on top of the world with your love"
"Playboy to the death? oh yes!"
"I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do"
"You don't really want my heart. No, you'd just like to know you can"
"You only love to see me breaking"
"If I could write you a song to make you fall in love I would already have you up under my arms"
"Nobody's a picture perfect"
"But we worth it"
"Under the lights tonight, you turn around and you stole my heart with just one look"
"There I was again tonight, forcing laughter faking smiles. Same old tired lonely place"
"I give it all up but I'm taking back my love"
"You can run you can hide but you can't escape my love"
"Don't make me change my mind"
"It's personal, myself and I"
"I'm weird cos I hate goodbyes"
"It's gotta be you, only you"
"All I wanna do is to have some fu-u-un I gotta feeling that I'm not the only one"
"There's no place in my life for an ego your type"
"Who do you think you are? A super s-t-a-r?"
"To be completely honest it scares me to imagine, what life would be without you?"
"But I'm not giving you up"
"And we won't give up till we run out of desire"
"And yo this fighting shit is getting too old"
"I'm not perfect but I'm tired of this bullshit"
"Please, this ain't even jealousy. She ain't got a thing on me"
"I have a spirit indestructible. A heart that loving was made for"
"Money can't buy us happiness"
"Why is everybody so serious? Acting so damn mysterious"
Hmm I guess this is the part 1 of my fav lyrics so... and oh don't hesitate to ask me what song is it :)
-To be continued-
Jumat, 08 Februari 2013
Daylight.
Yo people wassup? It's Saturday baby! No homeworks, I guess. But wait! I think I have to make a map from my house to my school which is on the topmost of the highest mountain on earth #lebay
Sierra Squared Delta Squared. I got that words which means S2D2 meaning Same Shit Different Day. That's kinda true. I got the same shit everyday of my life. I hate my life thank you for asking, mostly. Oh and Happy Birthday to my beloved friend Indah Fatmawati! Have a blast and have a good year ahead may Allah bless your days always<3<3
Btw, I put Daylight as this post's title cos I'm currently listening to Maroon 5 - Daylight :) And fyi my brother is watching Alvin and the Chipmunks: Chipwrecked which is one of the coolest movie I know. I haven't watch it all the way till the end cos my brother keeps on bugging me. But I watched half of the movie and it impresses me already! Wow good works for the chipmunks.. and chipettes.
Oh and I have some plans that someday will become my greatest memory. I'm not gonna tell it here cos I'm keeping it as a secret and one day you'll all see things you can barely imagine a girl like me can do. Massive things. Good things of course. You'll take your words back, or maybe saying more nasty things to me cos some people just can't hold jealousy. I promise to make my mom and dad proud. And it will eventually make everyone around me proud of who I am.
Oh and if you haven't already, youtube pitch perfect's acapellas. They're perfect.
Troye Sivan: "Watching Pitch Perfect with my cat. Pitch Purrfect."
Idk what else to write since the last time I'm being so inspirational and my surroundings doesn't support my brain to have any ideas to write on my blog so ciao! :P xo
Sierra Squared Delta Squared. I got that words which means S2D2 meaning Same Shit Different Day. That's kinda true. I got the same shit everyday of my life. I hate my life thank you for asking, mostly. Oh and Happy Birthday to my beloved friend Indah Fatmawati! Have a blast and have a good year ahead may Allah bless your days always<3<3
Btw, I put Daylight as this post's title cos I'm currently listening to Maroon 5 - Daylight :) And fyi my brother is watching Alvin and the Chipmunks: Chipwrecked which is one of the coolest movie I know. I haven't watch it all the way till the end cos my brother keeps on bugging me. But I watched half of the movie and it impresses me already! Wow good works for the chipmunks.. and chipettes.
Oh and I have some plans that someday will become my greatest memory. I'm not gonna tell it here cos I'm keeping it as a secret and one day you'll all see things you can barely imagine a girl like me can do. Massive things. Good things of course. You'll take your words back, or maybe saying more nasty things to me cos some people just can't hold jealousy. I promise to make my mom and dad proud. And it will eventually make everyone around me proud of who I am.
Oh and if you haven't already, youtube pitch perfect's acapellas. They're perfect.
Troye Sivan: "Watching Pitch Perfect with my cat. Pitch Purrfect."
Idk what else to write since the last time I'm being so inspirational and my surroundings doesn't support my brain to have any ideas to write on my blog so ciao! :P xo
Rabu, 06 Februari 2013
creeping in the IT lab yay me
I'm in the IT lab and making css file stuff. Stuffs I can never understand-.- I love css I just can't master it in short time. I will and should master CSS. Btw, I can't wait to go home and sleep I swear I'm hella tired af. The computers are weird here. Some can access internet, some can't. Some just won't load at all some has a nice rate of speed. Some has photoshops some only has internet explorer. I have no idea why. They should've make it all the same. oh well.
I'm freezing here and I got flu. Nice..
I'm on shoffa's computer. One of the nicest computer here. I swear I can't stand a day more in this hell (read:school) I wanna move :( I'm so tired of all these school stuffs. But my english teacher said, "Be careful what you wish for." Well that's scary. Yes, what if I move from altaqwa to a much scarier school? With scary teachers, friends and curriculum? hiih scary af. So I decided not to move from thishell.
I have to be patient! 2 more years till I can actually break free and gtfo atc.
Oh and being the "SRC" is no exciting. It's sick. Nothing amazing except for being blamed for things I didn't commit #overreacting
And yay! finally with the great help of my IT teacher, I can finally half-finish the html css thingy! Like hell yeah!!
oh and idk what else to write so ciao! :p xx
I'm freezing here and I got flu. Nice..
I'm on shoffa's computer. One of the nicest computer here. I swear I can't stand a day more in this hell (read:school) I wanna move :( I'm so tired of all these school stuffs. But my english teacher said, "Be careful what you wish for." Well that's scary. Yes, what if I move from altaqwa to a much scarier school? With scary teachers, friends and curriculum? hiih scary af. So I decided not to move from this
I have to be patient! 2 more years till I can actually break free and gtfo atc.
Oh and being the "SRC" is no exciting. It's sick. Nothing amazing except for being blamed for things I didn't commit #overreacting
And yay! finally with the great help of my IT teacher, I can finally half-finish the html css thingy! Like hell yeah!!
oh and idk what else to write so ciao! :p xx
Sabtu, 02 Februari 2013
SICKKKKKKKKKKK
So it's been the 7th day and I get a bit better. In some days, I just can't wake up and feel like puking all the time. The feeling sucks and I have to eat the medicine which makes me even sicker really. thanks for asking.
I was absent for a week and I'm so scared to go to school to see the look of disgust on teachers face looking at me thinking I've been absent for a week for fun. OH please, how I wish I was absent for fun. I was sick. Very sick that I can't even describe how sick I was. I have to eat at least five different medicine which taste like ew just ew. You know what the funny thing is? I've checked to three different doctors and none of them can make me feel a lot better. The last doctor was nice-but weird. He said I couldn't drink juice but buavita, no fruits! strictly I need to drink at least 5 cups of water a day. You see how upside down my world looks like? pfft.
It's Sunday already andgue masih ga punya pulsa buat nyalain paket bbm. Eh sorry that's not what I'm meant to say. I mean, It's Sunday already and I'm still sick, my face is still pale and the skin is peeling itself like weird. My face feels so dry. I wanna puke cos the doctor told me there's something wrong with my stomach. Thats what causes me to feel like puking all the time. Doctor also told me that I have a low blood pressure. it's 90/60 I guess. Normal ones are 180/80. I feel bad.
I was absent for a week and I'm so scared to go to school to see the look of disgust on teachers face looking at me thinking I've been absent for a week for fun. OH please, how I wish I was absent for fun. I was sick. Very sick that I can't even describe how sick I was. I have to eat at least five different medicine which taste like ew just ew. You know what the funny thing is? I've checked to three different doctors and none of them can make me feel a lot better. The last doctor was nice-but weird. He said I couldn't drink juice but buavita, no fruits! strictly I need to drink at least 5 cups of water a day. You see how upside down my world looks like? pfft.
It's Sunday already and
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