Melody in my head

It's been a while since I post worth-to-read posts. Wait, since when am I writing posts that worth? All my writings are worthless because they are diary my feelings. You know some people write when they're sad it's one of the ways to relieve pain. Usually heartache and emotional pain. Like what I'm feeling right now, heartache i mean, flu. Last night I use this weird small machine for people who have asthma to help them breathing. Thanks a lot to that machine I can finally breathe normally now.
I don't have the main idea of this post I'm currently writing but I'll just tell you some of my favorite song ok :)

• The Script - For the First Time
• Pitbull ft. Christina Aguilere - Feel This Moment
• Celine Dion - I Surrender
• Will.I.Am ft. Justin Bieber - That Power
• One Republic - If I Lose Myself
•  The Wanted - I Found Fou
• M.I.A - Bad girls
•  Cheryl Cole - Parachute
• Selena Gomez - Come and Get it
• One Direction - Irresistible 
• Demi Lovato - Heart Attack

fml.

because everything I do is always wrong, everything I do gets me in trouble. What's my point of living then? To torture myself? lol at my life. fml.

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Accident.

I'm in an extremely bad mood so here is an embarrassing story that makes my mood even worst.
So last Monday, I was walking with my friend. It was raining and the floor is very slippery. We were joking and then "AAAAHHHHH KEPALA AKU SAKIT BANGET" cried a girl who fell and her head and hand hit the floor. Yep, that's me :) I think everyone heard me screaming and crying and damn how I wish I can disappear in that moment. My head still hurts until now. Really hurts. And afterschool, everyone at school asked me, "Pristina, did you just cry?" Dammit, I should never cry that hard ugh. Now the whole school knows I cried. It was so fucking embarrassing ugh. From now on I will be very careful walkingin the school. I dom't want things like that to happen again.
alright this is the only paragraph that popped up in my head, cant think of any more sentences so ciao! ;) xx

Sunday

If anyone asked how am I,  the answer would be: I am completely fine a.k.a sick, tired, mad, stressed. I always feel this way since my life has been completely upside-down lately.
2 days ago, there's an assembly at school and it's year 8's turn which is my class! The boys of "Ridiculously Acht" performed a drama and it was TOTALLY WELL PERFORMED! Everyone loves it! Everyone laughed! The boys have some serious cool sense of humor! Best assembly ever!
Btw, I made this edit of Cara Delevingne which I think is quite awesome for a newbie like me:
ps. Please credit me if you use or take it! #noplagiarism

I ain't weak.

I ain't weak. That's what I believe I am. But people call me weak, they bring me down. They said,
"Halah, masa gitu aja capek sih." they said after I did a long run.
"payah lo" they said after I said I can't be too tired or else I'll be sick.
Denger nya aja sakit loh :)
Aku gapernah minta sakit. Gamau ko sakit. Gamau lemah. Gamau juga dibilang manja, dibilang lemah. Mau protes? Ke siapa? Allah created me this way and I am happy with it. Deal with it.
"Every piece of me is imperfect which makes me a perfect human because no human is perfect" - Pristina.
This is probably the most emotional writing I will ever write cos tears are literally falling from my eyes like a waterfall.
To be really honest, I'm tired of crying, screaming, stressed out of what people think of me. The way they judge me, comment on me, hate on me, it just hurts okay. It really does. I feel like bullied indirectly.
How will you feel when there's too much pressure and you're just too stressed out and people call you names with your weakness? How? Can you just ignore them and let it go? Can you? If you can wow massive applause for you. You probably have an indestructible, unbreakable, hard steel-based heart if you can ignore them and let it go. Well, I can't. I'm not saying I have a soft-heart but I do get offended easily I can even call myself so sensitive.
I'm having quite hard times this year. I know I'm not the only one who have lots and lots of problems but I also know that I'm not the only one having hard times going through these problems. I never thought I would be like this. For your damn information to the people who are heartless and call me names, by just the way you call me names and offended me you make me even more sick. Even the doctor said so. So I suggest you to stfu if you can't say anything but bad things.
You really don't know anything about me, yet you judge me. I assume you're way too overrated. I don't like you. You make me wanna puke on your whole damn existence. Now it's too late for you to regret the things you said to me. It can only be forgiven, not forgotten. Think before you speak, think before you act.

Sick, again.

Heyyyaaaaa I'm in the IT lab and I was given a task to make the float CSS thingy. Turned out to be a horrible plain white result. The CSS effect doesn't show up. Ugh. I hate it when I fail. Even tho, my life is full of failure lol.
So here's the thing. I'm sick and I have to go to school cos of the Gym Rehearsal and SRC meeting thingy. I went to the sick bay and sleep for hours. The side effect of the medicine I just ate this morning is heavy sleepy. You know, I don't want to be sick. No one wants to be sick. So please don't say something about my illness to joke about because when I hear someone says I'm weak or stuff like that, it hurts. It really does hurt ok. Think before you speak. You don't know about me. I swear to god I don't wanna be sick. Be thankful if you're not sick, not calling someone a weak girl or smthng. If you ever call me weak then you surely are a heartless person. Heartless. May Allah bless you, tho.